The Hunger Games.

Hola.
I am an emotional eater and the stress of moving plus the change in my medication has added quite a few pounds on my butt. Now I properly have junk in the trunk. Today was supposed to be "This is Sparta" day but instead I bought cookies and half a kilo of candy...which i then ate. Food doesn't live long in this house. If I'm sleeping badly I can actually wake up with eaten cans of tuna on my pillow (happened) or like six empty cups of ice cream on my nightstand (happened)....and I can't remember eating them.

Being slim has never been easy for me, I don't have the genes for it. I have to properly to starve before I lose  weight and it comes back in a one good munchies session. And I'm not very curvy so I just look big.
So, like all good diets, I declare The Hunger Games 2013...starting tomorrow. I hope the odds will for once be in my favor.


ciao xoxooxox
Coco

Training hard or hardly training.

Hiya!

My next show is on 28th, only two weeks away,and I have zero motivation for training. I'm just waiting for that spark of enthusiasm, though usually I'm at my best under the pressure of last minutes. I'm training at my local city gym that has like 5 mirror rooms for coreography, and they are always taken by people just hanging around. Literally every time I want mirror time I need to kick teenager ass. Luckily next week I'll be able to go to the gym at all hours, so maybe I'll find a niche training time to dance in peace.

Since I posted about my feelings about moving my husband pointed out that I don't sound too enthusiastic about the move. I really am, but I'm also freaking out. I live in my own comfy bubble and I don't like change. I like to be comfortable and I'm really bad at compromises. And ofcourse I'm worried about my career as a dancer. But I think if I keep pushing and doing what I really want, gigs will be coming in. Rovaniemi has like the most bars per capita than anywhere else in Finland, so Rovanniemi here I come!

Ciao xoxoxo
Coco

The Move.

So, basically I am a girl from a very small town (Lohja), it's a nice, cozy place, with good music (my american friend compared it to Seattle...maybe because of the go lucky, happy and sober atmosphere), but growing up a little different in a very small place is hell. In school I had the perfect trifecta: Glasses, braces, nerd. And ginger...so very ginger. Lohja isn't very big on the goth scene and everything abnormal is to be stared, pointed and sometimes spat at. So when I hit 18 I was out of that place like it was on fire. I loved Helsinki at first sight, as a kid mom used to give my sis and me some pocket money and send us shopping and the love affair has lasted these past 10 years I've lived here. Unfortunately Helsinki is like the second most expensive city on the frigging planet, so this year we decide to stop fucking around and become adults (fuck no just kidding). We decided to move up north to Rovaniemi official hangout of Santa Claus.

The main reason we are moving is money. That's pretty much the deal. In Rovaniemi we'll be able to study and even have some money for bills and going out after the rent is paid. In Helsinki no such luck.
We are both turning 30 and decided to make a run for it. Past ten years have just flown by, I've accomplished nothing and basically I just don't wanna end up waking up at 50 in a minimum wage job. Rovanniemi is so much cheaper, we'll actually be able to be artists there. Here especially Ilari's (my hubby) photography suffers because of the long days at work.



But...there's always a but. I'm a city girl. I love the nature but I love living in a place where I can live 24/7. As an insomniac I need places to be open LATE. make no plans, buy one meal at the time instead of planning weeks meals in advance. What if I can't take it? The big move across the country should be in less than two weeks and we have literally done nothing...no car, no driver and most important of all...NO GOING AWAY PARTY.

We will be first moving to an old school turned into a commune and live with Ilari's dad, and when we have a bit of money we will move to the city. But it's a long time and neither of us can drive. Ironic, in Helsinki all my friends are close but I never have time and money to see them VS. Rovanniemi where we could go out a lot more but I have no friends.

My next Performance.

Hello.
I've been booked to Kalajoki to perform on the 28th of March.
I'll be pretty much doing the sets I have prepared for this season, so I need not to stress so much, but now that I'm moving at the end March, there is a shit load to be done and I'm freaking out...
Nothing is packed, we don't have a car and neither of us (my husband and me) can drive. Even though we are planning to leave most of our furniture behind (fucking Ikea...you get them in tiny boxes...build inside your house and voilá...A ship in a bottle. I'm not gonna dismantle all that, they wont fit through the door anymore and even if i was a evil genius/McGyver, I'm not putting that shit together AGAIN.

I love performing and I adore Kalajoki, there's always a good vibe and people are friendly, it is a horrible drive but It's a hotel so I don't have to take some red eye home. Last time I performed there
I was gonna dance to Nouvelle Vague version of Dead Kennedies
Too Drunk to Fuck, but my cd didn't work so I ended up dancing to the original punk song.
My original dance was sultry, kinda funny and sexy and slow.
Instead I ended up pogoing my ass off and got high fives from the audience when I was done.
It was a desperate move but they seemed to enjoy it :)
This time I'll bring my music in every format known to man. All my friends are glittering pieces of art and they inspire me endlessly. Special shout out to Markus. He makes wicked tunes, is a mad inspiration and introduces new songs to my performances.

I'm doing my usual 2x3 song sets...I like the first song to be funny, second sexy and the third dramatic or something juicy I can really fan my fans to.

The Beginning of a new Blogger.

Hi Everybody!
I'm a Gothic Burlesque performer from Finland, in my twenties....and what else? First words and introductions are always a bit awkward. They set the tone, convey the topic and make that crucial first impression, so I'm not gonna try too hard and just list some stuff that is important to me. I love dancing, this is a thrilling time for me because gigs are coming in more and more, and I love to be on stage, my specialty is dancing with different kinds of feathered fans and also bringing a little edge to the art by, as a goth making songs a bit darker and more my own, choosing songs that typically aren't in every Burlesque CD ever made.I love tattoos and other body art. Pretty much people who live free and wild. I love comic books, they play a big role in my life. My favourite artists are Jhonen Vasquez and Roman Dirge.
I love my friends, they are my greatest inspiration. Currently I'm living in Helsinki but at the end of this month I'm moving to Lappland (Rovaniemi) which is really, really far up north, so I'm afraid of how little of my friends I'll be seeing  in the future. One of the main things I started this blog is to tell how I'll acclimate there. It's gonna be a rough trip, I'll be moving from my bohemian city lifestyle in Helsinki (the capital)  to...pretty much the woods. So countdown to cabin fever starts at the end of March, At least for the first 3-6 months. I love animals, my family includes 6 snakes (more to come surely). And let's see...books, films and music. Duh. And of course my husband. And yes kiddies, some of my modelling or performing pics can be quite explicit, so enter with your own risk ;)

Visit my Facebook page for more photos and such http://www.facebook.com/pages/Coco-Caine/337018919738879?fref=ts
Copyright to most of the pictures Ilari Nurmi


Hope you'll enjoy my postings in the future .xoxo